the gr8 life
Silence. Stillness. Unmoving. Waiting. Don't those words just resonate with negativity. Why do we need to wait? What's the point of silence? Isn't life supposed to always be moving, never slowing down or stopping? It's scary, I so get it. It's scary to think you have to wait to hear The Lord, that you have no idea what will happen or if something will even happen, silence just sweeps over your life. It may be for two weeks, two months, two years, or even longer, but The Lord is still, unmoving. He doesn't speak, or at least you can't hear Him. Eventually, you'll cry in aggravation, annoyed that no matter how much you pray, you hear nothing, no call, no signs, nothing. After days of tears, you'll start asking questions and making assumptions, "Jesus, where are you?" "Don't you hear me?" "You aren't good, you suck." "I'm mad at you, God." Then more unanswered questions and silence continue to fill your heart and mind. Then you shut down. You disconnect entirely without any type of faith and now your life is great, amazing, and wonderful. YOU now have full control and full grasp on anything and everything you want. Jesus won't listen, so why wait for him to answer you when you can just take the driver's seat. You put Jesus in the passenger seat and you take off. No more tears, no more stress on waiting for an answer, you've got your entire life covered.
That's the way it goes. When things don't go our way, we put Jesus in the passenger seat and take the wheel, literally. We drive down curvy roads, over unsteady bridges, through dangerous tunnels, we put ourselves in full control, leaving Jesus out of the picture. It's so easy to do. When life is slow, still, unmoving, silent, we have no patience to wait and we move right along, picking up every burden possible and dragging it with us wherever we go. But life is good. Everything is going our way, and we like it. A LOT.
Then you go across an unsteady bridge and it falls. Your boyfriend/girlfriend breaks up with you, your grades go way down, your parents get a divorce, your grandma dies, no one knows what devastating hit tackles your life, but it does, and soon enough, you're right back to where you started. Calling for Jesus, asking questions, crying even more tears, begging for answers, but still, silence fills your heart. Nothing. So now what?
Be still. Be patient. Turn that unmoving silence to moving grace. Now don't those words resonate with positivity. The Lord is with you!! He ALWAYS is. He knows you're hurting, he knows you can't drive the car alone, You need Him. No matter how many times you say you don't, you do. Yes, life will go on, but not how you want it to. Jesus loves those moments of silence and waiting. Those are his favorite times because during those 2 months, 2 years of stillness, you are growing in Him. You are learning how to love, how to trust, and how to have faith even when you can't see where you're going. The Lord has your back. He isn't going to let you fall off the bridge or go through a dangerous tunnel alone, He loves us way too much to let us fail, but WE are the ones who have to let Him have full control. WE are the ones who have to let Him take the driver's seat, and WE are the ones who have to just take a deep breathe and sit back and relax in the seat next to Him. He knows where He's going, and I promise you, His plan is the unimaginable compared to ours.
Next time you're in silence, make noise. Next time your life is unmoving, move it. Don't make those times of waiting the worst times. Don't end your days in a bed full tears, but be happy in the time that The Lord has given you to rejoice and grow in Him. He loves loves loves you, and He doesn't ever purposely make us unhappy. We are His children, and He is our Father and no life can be greater than the life we have with Him.
